Tranformation ll

Hello Friends Sorry For The Delay Actually Little Busy These Days. Honestly Speaking I'm Running Out Of Ideas. Now Continuing From Where I Left Off...

Now sam who is at bangkok alone no one around with whom he can share his feeling. Loneliness bites... He really needs a shoulder to cry. This time he feels the absence of his friends and parents. Missing his mom's lap , dad's encouragement. He don't know where to go? He was not able to face anybody. He has a flight next day then he reached bhubaneswar.His parents are waiting for him at airport.After the arrival his father asked him about the meeting he told that "its ok" may be he don't have the courage to tell the truth or he is hoping that everything will be alright.But it never happened. Life is not always a Fairytale, Sometimes It is Hard hitting. sam completely broken. he has taken a room in rent at bhubaneswar started living there. Now one aim of his life How to can he pay the money to bank? He never wanted this money to be a burden for his parents. Now he is prepared for any kind of job even tried in some call center. Finally he got a job at a call center salary is less than what he has fixed for his employees. It is a night shift duty for American clients. He has a boss named Mr. Banerjee one word to describe Bastard.

In The Next Part We Will Go Through His Life As a Call Center Agent.

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Transformation

Sorry Folks For The Delay.The Next Part Of The Story continues....

As sam rejected all the job opportunities now you can officially call him Mental.I don't want be rude but this is one word i can describe him or may be i'm obsessed with describe everyone's character with one word. As per the aunty next to his house thinks sam is rusticated from the engg. college. It is lot of pain for his family.In his neighborhood being uneducated is good,but if you are unemployed it is like a sin. The idea about starting business in kind of forbidden.After around 2 month of completing engineering successfully.His father asked him "what you want to do?". The answer obvious "Business" and response as usual "r u crazy?". No one want him to be a businessman and everyone from his previous generation are employee and they also want sam to be like them. Then his father asked him raising his voice "You Want To Open a Grocery Shop In our locality?". Then his father repeated "you want me to finance your business? but sorry sam i have already done a lot of thing for you. i have almost spend all my savings on your studies. i'm not going to spend a paisa for you anymore. if you want to do something do it by yourself. if u want to waste your life do it. Me and your mother are never depended on you for our future. we can spend our life by our self. Do as u like." Sam is stunned. The last thing he wants a support from his family and now it is not with him. His mother come to rescue and said "Look beta we are from a middle class family we don't have that long night so that we can dream that big. we can understand it is dream but you can not fulfill all your dreams. we both love you any respect your dream but be matured." sam don't believe it his mother has the same view as his father. sam always is a good son he never disobeyed his parents but this time he is not fully agree with them. at last he said "Mom it is not a dream which i use to watch with closed eyes,it is a dream with my eyes wide open. Shut Up sam his mother said it is not at all only about you it is about our family, so please be practical. But sam is in no mood to listen to these kind of stuffs. He just want to prove his point. This is first time is his life he is arguing with his parents.May be his parents are right they only want to protect their only son from doing something adventurous or may be risky.

Now as he knows there is no support from his family. He started thinking that is he acting immature, is he spoiling his life. his friend are placed at some of the fortune 500 companies of india getting around 30k per month. is he not eligible to be there? sometimes reality bites. when he started comparing himself with his cousins he failed to look into the mirror because it also required a eye contact with himself. In family gathering sam use to be the center of attraction for all his relatives, but now they started ignoring him or may be sam thinks like this. he is in his all time career low. He is not able to sleep in the night not able to eat properly in daytime. he has even not shaved for a week or long because he has no one to meet him. All the friend are busy in their respective jobs. All the relatives are ignoring him. His parents have no time for him as they think he is useless. Even his sister is out of the town for higher studies. He is alone totally alone. He is fighting with the evil inside him. One day he even googled for the methods of suicide. He knows his parents love him and his mind is in full support for his parents but his heart only knows one thing his dreams. The days are dark and nights are long, one support he always get is from the girl of his old town.Yes the same girl his first love.Every night he comes in his dream and ask to follow his dreams and every night sam ask her to be with him and she agrees, but then he wakes up trying to figure out the difference between real and dream. it is same as hell and heaven. That is the one force which is guiding sam thorough this phase of his life. The memories of that girl still haunting him. He want his life back from his high school days but as we all know Time Is Irreversible.
Now After 4 month of what people call Struggle comes the ray of hope. Yes sam is not at all that unlucky or may be it is due to his hard work which he put in during the last 4 months to communicating with various outsourcing agents worldwide. Now the efforts a going to be fruitful he got a offer from a company of Thailand to open a BPO over here in india.
Now everything is ready the bank is ready to finance the project as they like the project report prepared by sam.He has taken the loan and started building the interior of the house which he has taken as rent with one year security deposit and the interview of the staff selection also started. sam is happy now his dream is going to be true. He has successfully followed his dream and now it is going to be true.Now he thinks that his father would be proud of him as he has started the BPO without taking a single paisa from him.
Don't know why happiness always have a short life.sam got a call from Bangkok same company which sam is going to have a partnership they want him at bangkok for the signature in some of the document. Now he is even more happy 1st time in his life he is going aboard and that to a business trip wow!!!!!!!! He don't know the trip is going to be the biggest disappointment of his life. When he reached the suvarnabhumi airport at bangkok. He has a feeling that He Made It. He is a young achiever that is why he is also feeling a little proud about himself. He checked into his hotel and after getting a bath he is ready to reach their office for the formalities.He reached there on time after a few discussion they refused to give him the project. The reason is very simple there is a economic meltdown in USA due to Subprime Loan and Satyam Computers disintegrated after the confession of Mr. Raju.Now They don't trust any indian company for the project. For a second he don't know what is going on? This is the 1st time in his life he is feeling guilty of being indian. Then he realized he is fucked by Mr Raju of Satyam Computers and All the american who has taken Subprime loan. I don't want to use the f-word but i don't know a better word to describe the situation.Now what he will do he already has taken a loan from bank, peoples are appointed as staff what will be his answer to his parent and what is going to be his future. He is completely screwed.

Anyways in the next part we will go through sam's journey to became a entrepreneur.

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Experience II

It is not the next part.The Previous Part Continues............

The boy is bending in his knees asking for a answer.The answer to question which could be a question of his lifetime.In closed eyes he is dreaming.As he is quiet confident of the answer he going to get.After sometime he feel someones hand on his shoulder. he opened expecting Hema,but it was his friend.he is little surprised his eyes are searching for hema.

Then his friend told him she is gone.
sam's answer WTF!!!!!!!
He still beleived that hema is somewhere around and they are playing a trick.But when he realized it is like Rape infront of whole college. .Almost all his friend know that he going to propose her today even some of the close one's waiting for the party to start.I don't know why boys always think about there prestige first,but it is true.sam never thought about Hema what is the reason for her this type of behavior.He is almost certain about the reply.That hurts him the most.When there is a expectation there is a pain.

That night he cried,yes our hero cried he is not as macho or headstrong he pretended to be.He is still in his teenage and he really not in any kind of situation to handle the embarrassment.
Last 5 days he is unable come to the college. He avoided calls from his friends. he is still trying to recover from that incident.it is not a heartbreak it is a disaster. He has broken completely,Also deleted the number of Hema from phone book.He really wanna take his revenge he would like to slap hema in front of everyone but he can't he still loves her.
The next day his phone rang he is in the college not attending the class siting in the canteen.His phone rang it is hema's number. he erased the number from the phone book but forget to erase the number from his memory he still can recognize the number without the help of phone book.A lot of questions started to revolving around his mind.After some thinking he pick up the phone,it is the voice of hema she asking him to meet at cafe coffee day in evening she want to talk with him alone. He agreed to be there,but it is a reluctant yes.
Then the evening arrived which is going to change the direction of his life completely.He arrived at the coffee shop before the time waited for Hema. It is always good to wait for the girls,if somehow she has waited just one minute for you that day you are screwed.anyways Hema arrived wearing a purple kurti and a pair of denim.

She wished him hi but sam not responded may be he is also a little stubborn.She has two friends with her.Then the three girls give him a lecture about life,love,relationship.It is unbearable and one of the worst feeling in his life.No one in this world want a lecture from a girl specially from girlfriend.May be hemabindu is trying to console him but that time it is more than a Poison.One of the friend of hemabindu advised him to don't act childish you here to study and make your parents proud not to involve in relationship.Now he can't hold his patience "Shut up u b**ch" don't u all bother about me and stop giving me advice i not going pay for this.. Then he left that place after paying the bill.
Then after some days he came to know that hema is now involved in a relationship with a guy from final year.That guy also proposed her that day as it is V-Day and hema agreed.In every ways sam is better than that guy except one he got a job in infosys on campus interview.Why the girls are always after money? why they always wanted security? The girls who is giving lecture about concentrating in studies is in a relationship. i think girls have a special power of telling lie without being caught.
Now there is hatred developed for all the girls in sam's mind.He thought that all the girl are same SELFISH.Sorry girls it is sam's thinking not mine.
Now sam want show her that he also can capable achieve something bigger than infosys.Behind every successful man there is a hand of women .Now sam really serious about studies as he want to achieve his ambition. A average student of childhood now shines,and somehow the hand behind this success is hema's.
Then the same story continue for three years.Success is with him,his parents are happy.Some time the memories of that old town girl haunted him he still love him,it is may be his most successful love story till now.it is different that he never has the courage to propose her. The 1st love may be the most successful one also. In the final year only 3 student has chosen for the project in Hyderabad and rest are doing there in bhubaneswar.sam is one of the three.He visited Hyderabad and stayed 3 month for project.Now he is return to bhubaneswar.Then the campus interview started. Then sam got Jobs in all the MNC's visited that year,Including infosys.
But he has different plans for him.He refused all the job offers.He don't wanna join any MNC. He wanna do something bigger than a decent job to show his capability.His Revenge was incomplete.
Then he got a call from one of the friend of hemabindu.
"sam hema want to met you.it's urgent.she want to share something with you.Today is her engagement. .sam don't wanna go because the bitter memory of previous meeting,But still visited her place.sometimes heart decide.After all he is also leaving bhubaneswar in 2 days because engineering is over and Hemabindu is getting married so may be its a final Goodbye.

He has reached her house.hema is getting engaged to that infosys idiot.After all formalities he proceed to meet hema who is upstairs in her room alone.After few hello hi hema told her the original intention.Now she don't wanna marry that guy,Now she wanna be with him.I can bet no one can ever going to understand the feelings of a girl.When you want them they ignore you,and when you ignore them and started a new life they want u back. But our sam is in no mood to change his mind.May be at that time his heart is transformed into a stone.He has the heart but without emotions. Refused all the request by hema.
The ambition started with a revenge is now his passion,his goal in life.it is all due to a girl.Now he has no regrets for hema. Now only one thing he want in his life his ambition.

He want to Move On......

That's it for this post.I will keep updated about sam in my coming posts. I think next posts are going to be interesting as it revolve around the emotional battle sam is fighting in his life.

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Random quotes

> The Real Man loves His Sweetheart The Most,His Wife The Best and His Mother Longest.

>Job is Short term Solution To a Long term Problem,Business is a Long Term Solution With Short Term Problems.

>Life is full of ups and downs. What matter most is how to enjoy the good times, and learn from the bad ones.

>LOVE is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, almost impossible to live without.

>There are two kinds of people in this world, those who are wise and those who are otherwise.

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The Trueman Is Not Who Having 100 Girls,But Fighting For a Girl When 99 Girls Chasing Him.

A Experience

It will be the third post on same story.Hope you are not getting bored after reading these stuffs.Thank you all for your comments these are the real driving force behind this blog.

Continuing the story........

Sam woke up in morning and wondering where he is... after some time he realized that he is in his hostel.Got out of the bed. The clothes and the accessories are not placed properly. they are still in the bag.he is searching for his toothbrush and don't even know it is in which bag "weird feeling".Actually his mother packed the bag that is cause of this confusion.Anyway he find the way for the bathroom.But surprise is waiting for him the door is locked,someone inside.He is never used to share his bathroom and waited for his turn.
Anyways get dressed and ready for the college.

In college one more surprise waiting for him the raging.At that time there is one song ringing in his ears "yeh kahan agaye hum" yes right the famous song from movie silsila this one is also one of my all time fav.
This routine continue for some days.Then one day when he was seating beside the driver of his college bus just in front of his college gate he saw a girl through the windshield of the bus.I need one word to describe that girl "A Flash".As it is a rainy day some drops of rain are pasted on the glass windshield.That was a "Love At First Sight.Some mud water was splashed into that girls dress due to bus and students passed some comments.But Sam was speechless.Our hero once again falling into love.Are bhai hero hai heroin to chaheye na.That second he pray to god that she must be from his branch and section.God fulfilled both.Lets call that girl "Hemabindu".

Then the same thing started again like thinking about her,possessive toward her.Even sam has fight with one of his hotel inmates who expressed his feeling towards Hemabindu.

Then the day comes Birthday of hema and sam got a invitation for the party in the evening at her place.He is excited and waiting for the eve. Dressed in his best party wear with a fine gift he reached at hema's house.Welcomed by her mother she has several friends out there and they all enjoyed that evening nicely even they danced with each other.Hema's parents are very open kind of person.It is one of best memories in sam's life.
Then the 14th Feb yes yes The V Day. Everyone is thinking how to propose there girls.sam also has some plan he picked up a bouquet with 60 roses ya right the red ones which he has collected before that day from one of the best florist of the city and preserved it carefully for his beloved.
Then he came to the college in lunch break yes he bunked classes.He send message to her that he is waiting for her in canteen and waited.After around 15 minute she came.This 15 minute is like one and a half year for sam.Then he stand up and gifted the flowers to her and wished Happy V Day. The Friends of sam hidden in the canteen and watching the proceedings.They waited with a special cake.When she says "yes" they came out and surprise her.Then sam told her that "i also have another gift for you which will last forever and with a life time guaranty".Then She Asked "What was it? Its Me.I brought 60 roses which is for 30 full moon night and 30 dark night of a year means whatever the situation may be good or bad,happy or sad,full moon or dark,i will be always with you".

Then he bend on his knees closed his eyes waiting for the response.......

Sorry Please Spare Me I Cannot Write More Tonight. Getting Nostalgic.It is very tough task to overcome feeling.Not willing to do so but i can't write.

Keep Posting Comments I will get back to you soon.

Immortal Love

As Promised Coming With The Next Part Of Sam Speaking. It is not a second part neither a sequel.Starting Where i left of,

As you Know Sam Our so called hero.He also has some gray shades in his life.

After completing his board he joined junior college.Result of the exam as expected not a big reason of surprise.In college people says lot of things changed, but for my hero it is as usual. same friend of school same hangout same masti except one thing he has to wear full pant to college instead of the half ones which he hates somehow it looks like the pants of worker of the municipality who used to clean the drains.one more thing he got a new Bicycle.Getting a new cycle is like a dream come true still unable to share that feeling and still searching for same kind of happiness.it is not that this is his first bicycle.He got the first one when he was in class 3 at that time he even don't know how to ride a cycle he learned ridding cycle from his new cycle at the age of something around 7 or 8.That cycle is one of the best at that time with straight handle bars.Now he got a new one still he is happy very very happy.This best thing there parents wanted from him the smile in his face,But the parents don't know that in future it is going tough to find that smile in his face.

Coming back from flashback sam got new college, new bicycle and Full pants now what he needs a girl may be......

At that age having a girl friend is like a status symbol.its a common mentality among boyz.I don't think sam was that desperate but girlfriend mil jaye to sone pe suhaga. One more thing college gives sam the freedom that he always wanted. This college is also co education means both for girls and boys.the high school was only boys type. At that time he was a crush on a girl i need one word to describe that girl "Simply Amazing".She is batch junior to him.He never expressed his feeling towards her.May be this is his first love a popular believe is that No one can forget his first love so did sam. He still miss her.May be he should have give it a try so that he never have to regret in future or may be some relationship are worth than expressing.If he expressed his feeling and get rejected may be the memories won't be as sweet as it today.
Then comes the band of girls "I Luv U Jaanu" type . sam needs a girl friend and he got one in them.I also need one word to describe this girl "Gossip Girl". She shares everything with her friends in a different way like "look at my Lipstick aunt brought this from newyork isn't it cool" even they compare there boyfriends "look at my boyfriend he got 80% mark what about your boyfriend".i think he never loved her.he tried to search the qualities he wanted for his better half but failed to find it in her. It is like a compromise not relationship.He needs a girlfriend and she needs boyfriend to show off.Anyway it was never a relationship.
Then there family changed the town they come to there native place because the transfer in his father's job.It's a big blow for him, he lost his years old friends his relationship everything.It is like a heartbreak but he don't have the courage to protest it.After that day he never visited that town where he has so much memories of his childhood,teenage ,first love and that girl........It is like a emptiness in life....
Do you believe in destiny but sam does he still waiting for that girl and one more chance to express his feeling towards her.May be it's a unfulfillable dream...

After that blow he don't have the courage to start his life allover again.He kind of gone into shell his life just stopped after that.So he and his parents decided that he should join a premier engineering institute actually he also got a good ranking in entrance exam.

Here he comes to a city which you can say is now a second home for him.At that time city is very unknown to him.he joined the college and the hostel.it is first time he is staying without his family.At that point of time it a feeling like doing something adventurous.The topic won't be complete if i don't write about the first day experience in the hostel or you can say first night.
His parents left him in hostel and gone back to there native place.Giving them farewell with waving hand and watching there car till the red back light of the car disappeared. When He Turned Back a new world is waiting for him new friends from different region of the country.The story will be incomplete if i don't mention this incident one of his hostel inmate who also joined that day come to there room which is shared by two more people and asked anyone here has a habit of smoking everyone shaking there head.Then he told "I also hate smoking but i'm a chain smoker".Everyone Started laughing. Then Comes the preparation for first day of college.

Reader's Wait For the adventure of sam's life,some mistakes, some happy moments,some ambition. i will describe all his journey thourgh his engineering student life in the next part.

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Gud Night

Introduction To Sam

Hello All;

A Boy Around 25 standing beside NH 5 at bhubaneswar.Want to do something which against all rules,ethics,morality of this society.He want to swim against the flow.Generally in a middle class family specially from Odisha the best thing one can do is to get a decent job in some MNC with a salary of 40,000 or a job aboard would be a added advantage.But this guy is little different,he wants to live his life in his own ways.a age of 25 is lot crucial in a boys life. it is age when he transform himself from a boy to man,Bindass to Responsible.It is a lot bigger topic for discussion.
Now Focusing on our character Lets call him "sam" because without a name we cannot write anything about anyone.So our sam who has already gone through a lot of test in life.a lot of questions on his capabilities.He has come up very strongly to prove his point but there is one thing people only pay for you for your result not your hard work. our hero is little poor in this part.He is a bit unlucky.

But don't worry as i told earlier he is our hero so by default a fighter.Even masala hindi movies have a happy ending so this story must have one.

Coming back to my point he is standing,standing against all odds of this society.he only have the his courage,a support from his family who are also insecure about there future but have trust on there son.

Sam has taken the risk of his life which can be spoiled with one mistake.A risk of lifetime.Sometimes it is unbearable for him to take such load,but it is not that weightlifting practice at gym where you have a option to put down when you are unable,there is no looking back.

Sam has some very good childhood memories not a very bright student.a average student with average thinking,average ambition,small group of friends,routine life.
Spend the childhood at a small town of odisha.Just know two thing in life Study,Friends.

Sam hates one thing in life being compared with other children.Has some so called teenage rebellious attitude.there is a common saying that In Teenage Every Child is a Rebel .But almost you can say smooth childhood. He also have a high school sweet hearts but now you can say that is just a crush.

So Reader's The Real Story Will Be Unfold When We go to the next part of his life,About Happiness,experience,Truth,Dare and above all LOVE

So Wait For the next post and Give me your comment about sam.

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Late Night Post

Its Already 02/07/11 and i'm feeling sleepy.

Right now Listening To Listening To The Songs Of Sona Mohapatra."Paas Aao Na and Emptiness From Rohan Rathod awesome music.Just Wondering Where indipop is heading, In 90's it has created a trend.We have great some music from Aryaan,Euphoria,Bombay vikingsEven i still mis the songs from Falguni Pathak in my view songs from Falguni are little feminine with a touch of Folk still love the Music and don't forget songs from Sonu Nigam Dewana,Jaan,Yaad It is like high school musical for me. In teen age really enjoy these songs whenever i think of those songs i feel nostalgic.it is like a part of life.I still have some memories associated with these songs.Ok Enough Gyan now heading to bed.My pillow is calling.

Bye